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It's been such a long time since I last updated my blog and you don't want to know why...but I'll tell it anyway. On Mondays, Wednesdays, and Fridays, from 1-5:30 pm I'm in a review center. You know, preparing for college. I'm currently attending in a review center located between Aurora Blvd. and Balete Drive. It went out really fine...I'm learning, indeed. Though I admit, my school is better. All this review center do to me is to refresh my memory on our previous lessons since I was in first year. I recognize all the lesson, except those in Math...

So what have I been doing...

I have been drawing nightly, but still haven't post them yet in my deviantart account because my siblings are the only ones who could use the computer - except now. *hehe* Sometimes, I'm really annoyed that they're the only one who receives the advantage of using computer. My younger sister's only work when using the computer is in Facebook and Picnik, while my brother has so much! He has a lot of games installed in this computer and also settles for Facebook and Y8, sometimes, CartoonNetwork an Disney. All they are doing are - for me - nonsense. I mean, why not widen their knowledge by researching using the internet and use their vacation to broaden their vocabulary or learn something else, right? Well, my friend would always tell me when I complain to her, "It's vacation! And what do you do on vacations? ENJOY!"

Oh yeah, I'm enjoying. I'm can freely draw whatever I want now anytime, anywhere. I have also been practicing my piano playing and successfully, I was able to play Canon in D (arranged by Oberon - I think) fully. I've been reading mangas I want these past few weeks but not on regular basis, only when I can use the computer.

And you'll be surprised to know that I am writing stories again! I haven't written stories for years since I was in second year. If I have time, I could put it here. And you know, I just want this story to be published just like those books I love to read. A while ago, I was looking for book publishers here in the Philippines but I just couldn't find one. Maybe I'll try SUMMIT MEDIA, but I doubt I could do that. Well, I just have to continue writing, right?

Mask - Kamen no Jouji

*pic from mangaupdates*

Well, just a while ago, I was searching for a nice manga to read in mangaupdates and this caught my attention. The story focuses on Ria who wants to revenge against Kyouji Hime, the son of a famous gang leader. Why did she want to plot a revenge? Because ten years ago, Ria's birthday, he and his family is the reason why her parents died. It was her birthday and her mom gave her a charm - a good luck charm - which is really precious to her. Then came those gang members forcing the her poor parents to pay for a debt.

In Ria's room, a man entered, the 18-year old Kyouji whom she asked from to save her parents. With that request, she gave him her good luck charm and Kyouji willingly said yes to the child. Ria hold on to that promise Kyouji made but then because her parents couldn't pay the debt, they killed themselves leaving Ria in the care of her uncle and aunt.

Ria bravely went to Kyouji but instead of keeping her resolve for a revenge, she ended up sleeping with him. Somehow, time is running and it seems that her feelings falter. What would she do?

One day, Ria had the opportunity to actually spurt out all she wants to say and attempted killing him. But do not forget that he is the son of a gang leader. People with weapons came and took Ria. With all that she said, it finally came to Kyouji's mind about that girl ten years ago and he fought those men to get Ria back though she is unconscious.

When she regain consciousness, Kyouji tempted Ria to kill him with a knife. She can't do it...Soon, she learned that Kyouji still holds on to that promise and that he was sorry to break such promise. It seems that Kyouji still has that good luck charm she gave 10 years ago. It ended with them happily accepted each other to change for the better. Kyouji left the gang to start a new life.

I want more of this story! It could have been longer! The plot is really nice, so how about more scheming plot to take on revenge on him and Kyouji still has this cold attitude and realizes that he loves her before they finally admit to each other that they love each other. Actually, there was no confession there. Kyouji only said, "Do you want to stay by my side. Not the employer-employee relationship but a real love relationship with you." something like that. And he was fighting with his father to marry someone for love. Well, I guess that counts as a confession.

Now I have a new mangaka I love, Miyazono Izumi. I hope to see more of his/her work in the future.

Time is relative...?

While I was watching Brenda Song's Disney movie Wendy Wu: Homecoming Warrior, I was awestruck by what one of those teachers who was teaching Wendy. I guess that was in the soccer field and the teacher was kicking soccer ball on Wendy. The goal is to dodge - I guess - every ball. At first, she couldn't even hit any ball and of course, she complained. The teacher answered, "Time is relative. Slow it down with your mind." And so be it, she did it and she was able to dodge evry ball.

The question is, how do you "slow down time with your mind". Yeah, that sounds crazy, right. Maybe time slows down without you knowing it. They say that time slows down when you are not preoccupied. Is that true? Now what is it with time, really?

Ever heard of the movie "Wanted". Yup, that has everything to do with time also, that's why I love to watch it. But take note, I love to watch it not because of those fighting scenes and blood, but because it is time related. It puzzles me. Could that really happen in real life? What do you think? Could you shoot a bullet kilometers away from your target, not in a staright path but still hit the target bull's eye? Now that I think about it, this is really related to ballistics.

By relative, what do you mean by that? Relative, meaning it exist because it is related to something else or it is link to something else. So time is relative because it may be related to anything. Can we really determine time? When someone asked you, "How many hours has passed?" could you really answer with a definite 3 hours without looking at a watch? Argh! This is really confusing!

Well, I have this hobby of determining time by songs. The usual duration of a song is 3-5 minutes, right. I usually do this when I am waiting for a download hehe :).

But despite this post, it really didn't answer my question. I hope maybe someone may explain this to me. I'm jus curious...

Ever heard of the "negative ions"

Last week - I guess - there were people who invade the office of my father, two woman and a man. The first woman, from what I heard is called Jesse. The other people are husband and wife, a happily married couple who loves sells sanitary napkins with a green strip inside which they believe to possess negative ions. If I'm not mistaken, I read about negative ions once and that really caught my interest. Negative ions are capable to releas one's stress, makes one extremely positive - that is totally ironic... Well, they are usually found near bodies of water.

So back to those people who were selling sanitary napkins with negative ions. They tested three brands of sanitary napkins. Two are famous and the other one is the one they are sellin. because of them, I found out that the sanitary napkins I am using are not "sanitary at all". *Gosh! I feel weird talking about this thing* So, I'll end it there because they totally strip the three sanitary napkins and compared them with one another. What I like about that experiment is when the guy poured water on them, and the product they are selling didn't get wet at all! It's really absorbent! Haha!

They said that before sanitary napkins were fabricated and distributed all over the world, disease like cervical cancer and dysmenorrhea didn't exist... Because they are not really "sanitary"- as what I have said earlier. The outside covering is made of rubber preventing air circulation while the inside is not made of pure cotton at all! And, this is what surprised me totally, the cotton - as they say - are "recycled materials". *Eww...gross...*

One more thing, they tried something on me. So, it is said that negative ion gives you strength. The guy made me stand with my feet at 45 degrees and my hands locked at my back. The guy placed his weight on me by pushing my locked hand downwards while I try to push in upward. Without that sanitary napkin, I couldn't force the hand upward and I struggle but when he just place it near my body, I dodge it. I don't know how that happened but I did hope to experience that when I watched the segment of Jessica Sojo about those things.

Yeah yeah that was totally amazing but the price is...you know. Though my mom plans to buy and be a member. I guse this is helpful to fight everyday stress for me. But do you think that's odd. How were they able to place negative ions on that green strip? If they are thinking that, "hey, this could be a great opportunity to earn money plus, we can help ourselves and others too." - well, I guess my mom thought that - but do you know what I thought? I thought, "Where the hell could I get these negative ions so that I could surround myself with it?!" Weird, right? But no matter how we prolong our lives, all of us will really come to an end... I guess humans really want to live eternally.

A New Someone...

<---that would be him...(taken by my sister using my cell phone, i haven't seen this one before, only now...)

Once upon a time, a guy texted me asking who am I and how I got his number. I could not remember texting him and at first I thought it was a girl because of the name. We texted for a while and I enjoyed it. He seems to be nice. Then I asked my younger sister if she knew him because definitely, who would toy with my cell phone besides her? And so, she told me that he is her classmate. From that day on, I knew this person was something...

Days, weeks, months passed. I remembered my sister seeing him in SMCP when we were together accidentally. We were just entering the mall while they were going home already. I don't remember seeing him but my sister told me that that boy was my textmate.

Eventually, I was chosen to be the MC for my sister's graduation. I was very happy at that time. I didn't think I would meet him there...He's super cute and funny. His teachers always call his attention for he somehow loves to move around. His smile really is so eye-catching and he plays the guitar incredibly good! I won't say I love him but I should say I like him and I am very much enchanted by his smiles.

His name would be a secret...hehe :3

I'm staying up till morning!

Yeah, I'm so awake!!

Just a while ago, I visited my webs account and I saw a comment about my favorite manga Daa! Daa! Daa!. It was from someone who calls himself/herself - I really don't know who this person is - SinfullyConceited. It was sent almost a year ago. I haven't opened that up since forever and I am surprised to see comments. I answered the question because I thought it would be nice to answer it though its really too late. And I'm really curious who this "SinfullyConceited" person is.

I also uploaded all the poems I can find in my webs acount and in here to my deviantart account. I quite enjoyed it really!

Someone I had to deal with...Guess who...hehe

She is a very close person to me. I love her because she is special. But then as she grows up, she moving further and further away from me...I can't reach her anymore. I wasn't aware of the fact that she is growing up to be someone I didn't want her to be. Lately she's been very secretive and all her actions in clandestine. I was not like her when I was her age, 13. I was mature enough yet I didn't think about having a boyfriend. For me at that time, my education is what matters the most. And as I watch her secretly studying her every action, comparing what she has done now and what I had done before, I feel that she is more contented that I am. I had claimed the valedictorian title, got envied for my wits, talents and skills. But now, I feel unsatisfied on how I spent my grade six years....

She was able to be very close with her friends in school. She has a social life, while I did not. I had only started going with my barkadas in my second year in high school, yet she even in her grade four years, have been going in her friends' house. Truly, I envy her the way she envy. I envy her freedom, her notion to do what she wants and how she can fully develop her talent is playing the guitar. She's just graduated grade school yet she can play songs I wasn't able to play before and until now. Yes, I do envy her...

I have been always stuck with reaching the peak of expectations of people around me. I was not able to fully develop everything I enjoy because I had to be the top one; its my priority. I am not like any genius who could get something in a blink of an eye. I am not confident of what I am...I burn the midnight oil to attain that one thing I want - everyone's expectation...They have, I assure have high regards for me and I never want them to be disappointed. But when I think of her, everything that I had always planned vanishes, crumbling to tidbits as if I never made them.

At this moment time, she has a boyfriend, a guy younger than her by one year. I failed to notice before because I was preoccupied with my studies. Only then when I was practicing with them their graduation - I was the MC - have I noticed. I had to deal with their batch. Their batch is much different from ours. Teachers say they are the worst. Yes, frankly in attitude, but they seem to think ahead very further. I heard of young girls talking about their boyfriends and break-ups...Had they influence her? What has happened to my younger sister...?

I have confirmed that she really has a boyfriend in her camera for she captured a picture of their conversation talking about their relationship. I was shock to death. Was that really true? I had to talk to someone, but not my parents. No, not them. If I tell them, they might hurt her...

But now, I regreted not telling them. She's becoming worst. Her attitude is different, rude, is the term. Though we laugh, we share a lot of things, she seldom answer me back. But I never fought back - only when I couldn't take it anymore that I fight back. I have grown giving in to her every request just like any sister would do. Whenever we have a dispute, I'll just lock myself in our room and let the anger evaporate. Whenever she wants something that I want to, I just give in because she's younger than me and that's what my parents and my grand parents tell me. I don't know how long I would be able to do this.

Since when has she changed? When she had her facebook account? When she befriended to bad influence friends of hers? When she met her boyfriend? or because she was insecure of me? I know it that she always envy what I have but then I also know that she loves me as much as I love her.

Now, she can't take her hands off her camera. Day and night she would sit endlessly in front of the computer and open her facebook account.

Despite that she is a sweet loving girl though she seldom gets angry and fight with my little brother. I love them both...but what can I do to make them better as a person...? I wish I could understand what I am feeling now because terribly, it bores a hole in brain...It has consumed my thinking capacity and I realize I have to use my heart...